where my happy heart goes? Part2
After I read this post at Life is once!!, a desire to write the part 2 of this post is suddenly filled my heart and brain. Although I haven't got the consent from the 1st author; although this block-musculoskeletal is quite tough; and although the quiz is just around the corner, I still have to give my opinion before I start studying.
I still remember the life when I was studying in Johore Matriculation College...
Initially, we were still not too closed, and our relationship is just at the "hi friends" level. At that time, I missed my life in Form 5 very very much even till today. Although my class in Form 5 only had 10 Chinese, 9 boys (1 in memory) and 1 girl, our relationship is like "aur dengan tebing", that means very close. But after a few months in Matriculation, although there were many small small and big big quarrels among ourselves, I started thinking in a special way. I am not sure whether the others are thinking same as me. In my mind, I think that, we can gather from different parts of the country to study in the same college, is not an easy job for God. So I started to appreciate this opportunity given by God. I can feel the others also had the same view as me, especially when we were in the end of the course. We became more tolerant and understand each others well.
Of course, we have our own small groups in Matriculation. I am in a group of 7 boys. But later, some girls came in, and our number of member increased to 10. 10 people, is neither a small number, nor a big number. The quarrels are the thing we could not prevent. But when it occurred, we won't be upset, afraid or even angry, because we were sure that we will become good friends back soon. 1 week, 5 days, 3 days, 1 day, 1 hour, or even 1 hour until I made a joke-"You have made me angry, I refuse to talk with you in 1 minute period". Haha... I know that some people may feel that I am crazy, but I think this is the best alternative way to solve all the quarrels, because the hope is still there.
My journey of studying continues, and we had to be separated into different University, due to different courses. And I almost lost my contacts with them.
A new life began, and I have to set my mind to continue the journey with a happy heart and enjoy the new life. This is because entering the medical school is my dream and my decision during the application. However, I feel that it is quite difficult to stay with a group of clever people. My happy heart is gradually disappeared like what described in "where my happy heart goes?"
I have lost my always-smiling face. At past, I even imagined I am the angle of joy, who will bring the joy, laugh, and happiness to the people surrounding me, that is why my email is luv_joy_peace86@yahoo.com. Three important angles - love, joy, and peace. From the Dean's lecture in Cognitive Neuroscience, I know that laugh is the best medicine, and it can increase the level of endorphin in our brain, to make our brain fresh. I know my life now is harmful and I hope there is a change soon. I hope I can enjoy my University life. And I hope I won't gain nothing after 5 years in university. I hope others to respect on me and hopefully I will respect on them.
This is quite a sad post, I do not specify anyone. But I think I felt better after I wrote it out as I know medical life is busy, rushing, and no people have time to hear from me. No other purpose except for untying the knot in my heart. Okay, I have to study already.
Where My Happy Heart Goes? - a very good question.
I still remember the life when I was studying in Johore Matriculation College...
Initially, we were still not too closed, and our relationship is just at the "hi friends" level. At that time, I missed my life in Form 5 very very much even till today. Although my class in Form 5 only had 10 Chinese, 9 boys (1 in memory) and 1 girl, our relationship is like "aur dengan tebing", that means very close. But after a few months in Matriculation, although there were many small small and big big quarrels among ourselves, I started thinking in a special way. I am not sure whether the others are thinking same as me. In my mind, I think that, we can gather from different parts of the country to study in the same college, is not an easy job for God. So I started to appreciate this opportunity given by God. I can feel the others also had the same view as me, especially when we were in the end of the course. We became more tolerant and understand each others well.
Of course, we have our own small groups in Matriculation. I am in a group of 7 boys. But later, some girls came in, and our number of member increased to 10. 10 people, is neither a small number, nor a big number. The quarrels are the thing we could not prevent. But when it occurred, we won't be upset, afraid or even angry, because we were sure that we will become good friends back soon. 1 week, 5 days, 3 days, 1 day, 1 hour, or even 1 hour until I made a joke-"You have made me angry, I refuse to talk with you in 1 minute period". Haha... I know that some people may feel that I am crazy, but I think this is the best alternative way to solve all the quarrels, because the hope is still there.
My journey of studying continues, and we had to be separated into different University, due to different courses. And I almost lost my contacts with them.
A new life began, and I have to set my mind to continue the journey with a happy heart and enjoy the new life. This is because entering the medical school is my dream and my decision during the application. However, I feel that it is quite difficult to stay with a group of clever people. My happy heart is gradually disappeared like what described in "where my happy heart goes?"
I have lost my always-smiling face. At past, I even imagined I am the angle of joy, who will bring the joy, laugh, and happiness to the people surrounding me, that is why my email is luv_joy_peace86@yahoo.com. Three important angles - love, joy, and peace. From the Dean's lecture in Cognitive Neuroscience, I know that laugh is the best medicine, and it can increase the level of endorphin in our brain, to make our brain fresh. I know my life now is harmful and I hope there is a change soon. I hope I can enjoy my University life. And I hope I won't gain nothing after 5 years in university. I hope others to respect on me and hopefully I will respect on them.
This is quite a sad post, I do not specify anyone. But I think I felt better after I wrote it out as I know medical life is busy, rushing, and no people have time to hear from me. No other purpose except for untying the knot in my heart. Okay, I have to study already.
Where My Happy Heart Goes? - a very good question.
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